Hello everyone, it has been a long time, since I made an entry. Hope you all find yourselfs in good health.
Prayers often times seem unanswered. In my personal journey I know times I have given up, cursed a storm, doubted, taunted, challenged God, bargain. It is the desperation and anxiety along with anguish and helplessness that drive some to these moments or I should say me, I cant speak for everyone.
“God help me!” Are words, cries and yells all to familiar to me.
Many nights I cried out to God, in hopes of a miracle. Wishing to waking up and “it” magically be “fix”. As I opened my eyes and realized that the night before I pleaded my case and asked and asked and waking up with a heavy soul…still.
I am sure you have heard that God answers prayers: yes, no, not now. However you want to intepret these is a self searching journey to specific answers you are searching for. Yet that’s not how we all think and it’s harder for some than others. the reality is those answer are confidential between you and God untill the moment you are called to share.
You have to let go of what is pulling you to one thing. And no I have not mastered it nor will I ever but we can humble ourselves and ask God for help. He will know your heart and in the end that is what really matters the he knows and therefore he will do what you need.
Its not the easiest: marriages, relationships, children, pregnancy, financials, schools, abuse, addictions and many many more. We all plea to god for help some find him when everything is lost and he finds you he calls you to him.
Prayers are answered according to his will. what I have in my experience as a chriatian in my 4 years is: Not my way, not how I magined, not my timing but has answered In A way that just fits in with life and not how I ever thought. The out comes vary and I cant answer for God or to you but just give you my own account and it serves as a reminder to myself when I doubt in my heart for a dream and desire I feel he blessed me with in his timing. I will continue to ask but now I hope and will try and remind myself to do it with trust.